Leaving is not enough. You must stay gone. Train your heart like a dog. Change the locks even on the house he’s never visited. You had to have him. And you did. And now you pull down the bridge between your houses, you make him call before he visits, you take a lover for granted, you take a lover who looks at you like maybe you are magic. Don’t lose too much weight. Stupid girls are always trying to disappear as revenge. And you are not stupid. You loved a man with more hands than a parade of beggars, and here you stand. Heart like a four-poster bed. Heart like a canvas. Heart leaking something so strong they can smell it in the street.
Janine Antoni - Slumber, 1994
"Antoni sleeps in the gallery for 28 days. While she sleeps, an EEG machine records her REM patterns, which she then weaves into a blanket from her night gown under which she sleeps."
Claude Monet - Morning on the Seine near Giverny, 1897
cute and silly jesy selfies just because!
Actresses that I absolutely adore - I’ve always been a black sheep. That’s a hard thing to be until you find your calling in life. I was bullied a lot at school, probably because I was perceived to be different from everyone else. But it’s so much of a relief when something works out for you as acting has done for me. I do believe in a kind of rough justice. I wouldn’t regard myself as a success just yet, and I don’t want to jinx it, but I do feel vindicated by what I’ve achieved so far.